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Pardon me, she would instantly apologize and then repeat again and again because
whenever you apologized to Allah you had to do it thrice: Pardon me, pardon me,
pardon me.
It was wrong, she knew. Allah could not and should not be personified. Allah did
not have fingers, or blood for that matter. One had to refrain from attributing
human qualities to himthats to say, Himwhich was not easy since every one of
histhats to say, Hisninety-nine names happened to be qualities also pertinent
to human beings. He could see it all but had no eyes; He could hear it all but
had no ears; He could reach out everywhere but had no hands. . . . Out of all
this information an eight-year-old Zeliha had drawn the conclusion that Allah
could resemble us, but we could not resemble Him. Or was it vice versa? Anyway,
one had to learn to think about himthats to say, Himwithout thinking of Him
as him.
The chances are she would not have minded this as much if one afternoon she had
not spotted a bloody bandage around her elder sister Ferides index finger. It
looked like the Kurdish girl made her a blood-sister too. Zeliha felt betrayed.
Only then it dawned on her that her real objection to Allah was not histhats
to say, Hisnot having any blood but rather having too many blood-sisters, too
many to care for so as to end up not caring for anyone.
The episode of friendship had not lasted long after that. The konak being so big
and dilapidated and Mom being so grumpy and mulish, the cleaning lady quit after
a while, taking her daughter away. Having been left without a best friend, whose
friendship, indeed, had been rather dubious, Zeliha felt a subtle resentment,
but she hadnt quite known toward whomto the cleaning lady for quitting, to her
mom for making her quit, to her best friend for playing two sides, to her elder
sister for stealing her blood-sister, or to Allah. The others being utterly out
of her reach, she chose Allah to be resentful toward. Having felt like an
infidel at such an early age, she saw no reason why she shouldnt do so as an
adult.
Another call to prayer from another mosque joined in. The prayers multiplied in
echoes, as if drawing circles within circles. Oddly enough, at this moment in
the doctors office, she worried about being late for dinner. She wondered what
would be served at the table this evening, and which one of her three sisters
had done the cooking. Each of her sisters was good with a particular recipe, so
depending on the cook of the day she could pray for a different dish. She craved
stuffed green peppersa particularly tricky dish since every one of her sisters
made it so differently. Stuffed . . . -green . . . peppers . . . Her breathing
slowed while the spider started to descend. Still trying to stare at the
ceiling, Zeliha felt as if she and the people in the room were not occupying the
same space. She stepped into the kingdom of Morpheus.
Excerpted from The Bastard of Istanbul by Elif Shafak, © 2007 by Elif Shafak. Excerpted by permission of Viking Press, a division of Penguin Group. All rights reserved. No part of this excerpt may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the publisher.
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