Excerpt from We Are Not Ourselves by Matthew Thomas, plus links to reviews, author biography & more

The man with the newspaper got out of the cab. He was tall and handsome, with dark cropped hair and striking eyeglasses. She imagined he was a visiting professor, Italian or Greek. She took her eyes from him before he turned in her direction.

"He liked you. He wanted to make an impression."

"An impression!"

"Look, this one is different," Ruth said lamely. "He won't be trying to win you over. He doesn't want to be there any more than you do."

"What's the problem with him? Is he queer?"

Eileen didn't know why she was still resisting. She would normally have done her friend Ruth this small favor, but she wasn't in the mood for disappointment, not on New Year's Eve. She watched the taxi launch off from the curb, only to stop again up the block to let a young couple pile in. The sun came back out from behind a cloud. Ruth unbuttoned her coat.

"He's a grad student at NYU. A scientist. Frank's in an anatomy class with him. He's obsessed with his research. He never leaves the library. Frank is worried about him. He wants to get him out."

Eileen didn't say anything. She was trying not to believe in the promising picture she was forming in her mind, for fear of disappointment.

"So what Frank told him is that I was nagging him to find a date for my friend for New Year's."

"Absolutely not!" Eileen said. "I will not pretend to be somebody's charity case."

"He's a gentleman. He couldn't resist a woman in need. It's the only thing that would have worked."

"Ruth!"

A pair of girls pushed past them into the luncheonette. Eileen could see the counter seats filling up and could make out only one empty booth.

"Would it help if I told you he's handsome? Frank even said it himself. He said all the girls they know think he's very handsome."

"Let them have him," she said, not meaning it. She couldn't believe she was feeling defensive about this man.

"Just do this for me and I'll never bother you again," Ruth said, putting her hand on the door to open it. "You can go become an old maid after this."

"Fine. But I'm not going to pretend to be grateful he went out with me."



In the interval between the setup and the date, she'd convinced herself that this was nothing more than a good deed she was doing. When the bell rang at Ruth's, though, she was seized by nerves. She ran to the bedroom and locked the door.

"Come on! I have to answer the door."

"I'm not going. Tell him I got sick or something."

"Come out and say hello!" Ruth whispered forcefully as the bell rang again.

She heard Ruth invite them in. She liked his voice: it was soft, but there was strength in it. She decided to open the door, but not before resolving to give him the hardest time she could. She wasn't going to have any man thinking she needed him there, certainly not some spastic recluse she'd have to lead around the room by the sleeve.

Before she had a chance to say anything sarcastic, Ed rose to his feet. He was indeed handsome, but not too pretty; neat and lean, with clean lines everywhere, including those in his face that gave him an appealing gravity when he smiled.

He leaned in and whispered in her ear. "I realize you didn't have to do this, and I promise to try to make it worth your time."

Her heart kicked once like an engine turning over on a wintry afternoon.


He could dance like a dream. When he pressed her close, his substantiality surprised her. The glasses, the neatly combed hair, the chivalry on the sidewalk and at doors made an impression, but the back and shoulders let her relax. The girls at their table thought him the most polite man they'd ever met. When she first heard him speak in his articulate way that was oddly devoid of accent, she thought he was like the movie version of a professor, but without the zaniness that emasculated those characters. Still, he was refined in a way that might have raised eyebrows among the men of her set. He could discuss things they didn't understand. He didn't so much drink a beer as warm it in his hand as an offering to the gods of conversation. She fretted over how he'd get along with her father, and so she brought him around earlier than she would have otherwise, in case she had to cut him loose, but something in Ed's carriage disarmed the big man. Eventually she had to feign annoyance at how well they got along. She shouldn't have been entirely surprised. He'd been a neighborhood kid, the kind who knew how to throw a punch when a friend was in trouble and could talk everybody's way out of it before it started—the kind men listened to because the way he spoke suggested he wasn't telling them anything he thought they didn't know already.

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