Excerpt from Here I Am by Jonathan Safran Foer, plus links to reviews, author biography & more

When the fingers of Sam's left hand were crushed in the hinge of the heavy iron door and he screamed, "Why did that happen?" over and over and over, "Why did that happen?" and Julia, holding him against her, blood blooming across her shirt as breast milk used to when she heard a baby cry, said simply, "I love you, and I'm here," and Jacob said, "We need to go to the emergency room," Sam, who feared doctors more than anything any doctor could ever treat, pleaded, "We don't! We don't! It was on purpose! I did this on purpose!"

Time passed, the world exerted itself, and Jacob and Julia began to forget to do things on purpose. They didn't refuse to let go, and like the resolutions, and Tuesday walks, and birthday calls to the cousins in Israel, and three overflowing shopping bags of Jewish deli food brought to Great-Grandpa Isaac on the first Sunday of every month, and skipping school for the Nats' home opener, and singing "Singin' in the Rain" while riding Ed the Hyena through the automated car wash, and the "gratitude journals," and "ear inspections," and annual pumpkin picking and carving and seed roasting and monthlong decomposition, the whispered pride fell away.

The inside of life became far smaller than the outside, creating a cavity, an emptiness. Which is why the bar mitzvah felt so important: it was the final thread of the frayed tether. To snip it, as Sam had so badly wanted, and as Jacob was now suggesting against his own real need, would send not just Sam but the family floating off into that emptiness—more than enough oxygen to last a life, but what kind of life?

Julia turned to the rabbi: "If Sam apologizes—"

"For what?" Jacob asked.

"If he apologizes—"

"To whom?"

"Everyone," the rabbi said.

"Everyone? Everyone living and dead?"

Jacob assembled that phrase—everyone living and dead—not in the light of all that was about to happen, but in the pitch-blackness of the moment: this was before the folded prayers bloomed from the Wailing Wall, before the Japanese Crisis, before the ten thousand missing children and the March of a Million, before "Adia" became the most searched term in the history of the Internet. Before the devastating aftershocks, before the alignment of nine armies and the distribution of iodine pills, before America never sent F-16s, before the Messiah was too distracted or nonexistent to awake the living or the dead. Sam was becoming a man. Isaac was weighing whether to kill himself or move from a home to a Home.

"We want to put this behind us," Julia said to the rabbi. "We want to make it right, and go through with the bar mitzvah as planned."

"By apologizing for everything to everyone?"

"We want to get back to happiness."

Jacob and Julia silently registered the hope and sadness and strangeness of what she'd said, as the word dissipated through the room and settled atop the stacks of religious books and on the stained carpeting. They'd lost their way, and lost their compass, but not their belief that it was possible to get back—even if neither knew exactly what happiness she was referring to.

The rabbi interwove his fingers, just like a rabbi, and said, "There's a Hasidic proverb: 'While we pursue happiness, we flee from contentment.'"

Jacob rose, folded the paper, tucked it in his pocket, and said, "You've got the wrong guy."

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