Excerpt from Followers by Megan Angelo, plus links to reviews, author biography & more

Orla thought of her laptop sitting closed and cool, untouched in the dark of her room. She told herself that as soon as she finished this drink, she would go downstairs and write a thousand words without the TV on. "I don't need your help with my book," she said. "I can get an agent on my own."

Floss laughed. "Oh, really?" she said. "Are you sure? You better be sure. You better be sure that you're in, like, the top five writers in New York City, and that you know all the people they know, and that those people like you better, and that those people are the right ones to begin with. Because look, Orla." Floss placed her hands on either side of Orla's head and pointed it at the building next to theirs, the one that blocked the sky from the rest of the roof. "It's 10:45 on a Monday night, and everybody in that building has their lights on. You see? They're all still up. Just like we're still up. What do you think they're doing?" She aimed Orla's head, roughly, at another building beneath them, a low-rise in pinkish-gray brick. "More lights," she said. "How about them?"

Orla saw a girl in her sports bra bent over her computer, drumming her fingers on her chin.

"I've done the math," Floss said. "I've done the actual math. There are eight million people here, and all of them want something as bad as I want what I want, as bad as you want what you want. We're not all going to get it. It's just not possible, that all these people could have their dreams come true in the same time, same place. It's not enough to be talented. It's not enough to work hard. You need to be disciplined, and you need to be ruthless. You have to do anything, everything, and you need to forget about doing the right thing." She released Orla with a little shove and put her hands on her hips. "Leave that shit to people in the Midwest."

They were quiet as the atmosphere sucked up her monologue. Orla steadied herself and looked Floss over. She would never make it as an actress, she thought. She went a little too big, wanted a little too hard. But Floss, it seemed, didn't want to be an actress. She wanted to be what she already was, even if nobody knew it yet: a celebrity. A person, exaggerated. And her point—the cold slap of the eight million dreams around them—unhooked something in Orla.

"I don't know," she said, shakily, finally. "That kind of sounds like bullshit to me." She tried to hold back a burp and found that it wasn't a burp at all. She leaned over and threw up on the deck. The whiskey burned twice as hot coming back up. Orla kicked her purse toward Floss. "Can you get me a tissue?" she gasped.

Floss dug through Orla's bag. "Ohhhh," she breathed after a moment, tugging something out. "This looks familiar."

Panting, hands on her knees, Orla squinted up and saw Floss holding, between two egg-shaped nails, Marie Jacinto's cheap business card. The one Orla had found by the elevator. Orla would never forget that: Floss standing there, grinning at her, flicking the card. She would think of it on that awful last day, as blood bloomed through her shirt and Floss said in a low voice, for once trying not to be heard, that this was the deal, and you know it.

And they did have a deal by then, with lawyers and seals and duplicates, but Orla never felt that the scrawls she made numbly on those documents were as binding as her failure to argue with what Floss said next. Floss put the card back in Orla's bag carefully, like she wanted it to be safe. She pushed the kiddie car away from the puddle of vomit and walked Orla off of the roof, leaving the mess untouched and the gate wide open behind them. Inside, as they waited for the elevator, Floss grinned and put her face in Orla's hair. "I don't think it does sound like bullshit to you," she said into Orla's ear. "I think you are like me."

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