The narrator is searching for meaning and transcendence, first in the Catholic upbringing she received, then as a run-away in the drug-fueled culture of the homeless, and finally in Zen Buddhism. In each of these situations, a strong "other" (her mother, Jules, and her "
…more Master") exert a sort of control over her. It isn't until she is able to break free of the confines of each situation that she is able to find what she has been searching for. An interesting exploration about religious dogma, guilt, and what it means to be devout. (less)