(4/28/2020)
I must admit, due to the current political atmosphere, the rising of global, as well as national antisemitism, the resurgence of nationalism and being underquarentine from an invisible invader, I postponed reading this book. A decision I now, totally regret. A more timely and heartfelt endeavour has not been written in a long time. Her research and desire to paint a truthful portrait of a painful time in world history is evident from the first page to the last.
She tells the story through the eyes of her protagonist, a child and who is more painfully truthful than a child. They are but clay that we mold and shape to our ideals until one day the world forces their eyes to be opened.
Herta is just such a child. She is the only daughter of two loving parents and the sister to a loving brother. She sees what they want her to see, sheltered in the family womb until one day, she is confronted by the ugly truth of a changing world. One she really doesn't understand. The rhetoric at home is kept to adults only until it invades her school, her friends and her surroundings. Friends once welcomed are shunned, without explanation. School mates and favorite teachers become persona non grata again with no explanation. Doctrine becomes the norm and taught as the only acceptable truth.
As all children do, they parrot what they are told is the truth until one day they begin to question. In the 30's in Germany during the rise of Adolph Hitler, this makes for a very tenuous and dangerous existence. There is Hitler's truth or there is no truth. Her father, once the editor of a local newspaper becomes more and more involved in the Nazi party, rising within its ranks. Her mother becomes the perfect wife of such a man devoting more and more time to her "good works". Her brother becomes involved in the youth movements with eyes on the Luftwaffe and all things childish are brushed to the side. Friends who no longer "fit" are abandoned or scorned. Things that Herta just takes for granted without understanding until one day, when she encounters one of those friends. A friend who was so close to the family a friend who saved her life as a young child, a friend who meant so much to all until he was shunned. When the explanations are made, her world begins to shatter. She begins to question everything. The facade begins to shatter and she enters a very dangerous realm. One difficult for an adult let alone a teenager. Trying to balance both worlds in such dangerous times leads to dangerous decisions. Decisions a teenager like Herta, a child of privilege, is not truly capable to handle. She is forced to develop a strength she was not groomed to possess.
Inspired by the past of her father's family, Fein dove into the research of the era, location and facts that existed during those dangerous years. Like many, including friends of my family, these times were to be buried and not talked about for a very long time. It was too painful. Too ugly. Too frightening to think it could ever rear its ugly head again.
I applaud her and cannot recommend this book highly enough. I assure you it will be high on the list for several of the book clubs I belong to. This is a must read for both its passion, history and as a warning for these dangerous times to not let this happen again.
Thank you BookBrowse for bringing this book to my attention and thank you Ms. Fein for a marvelous book.