First and foremost survival matters most to Julia. She wants to break free from the restrictive surveillance of Big Brother and the Party, but finds it impossible. She often struggles with maintaining the necessary pretense to avoid punishments- for example, when O'Brien wants her to "bring men in" she wants to decline..."She wanted foolishly to ask if she could still say no, if she could go back to her machines and her hostel...and still be let to live". But she knows that he does not want that and will not allow it, so she agrees.. truth and feelings fade in the face of death. By the conclusion of the new novel, Julia will never stop knowing what the truth is but she accepts that she "must do what is safe". At the end of "1984" Winston is dreaming of his death and he finally "knows" after 40 years that he loves Big Brother-which is naturally NOT the truth, but he is broken and it no longer matters to him what is true. I personally would like truth and my feelings to be in balance and feel they are equally important, it is something one has to work on constantly.